hestipod

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by hestipod 6y ago
You cannot even see what you are doing and are proving my point perfectly. You invalidate and minimize what I say. You turn it into something lesser to dismiss. You excuse the things I say bother me. You say it's MY fault there is no h
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by hestipod 6y ago
"The problem" is always the victim...never the people doing the victimization. This just reinforces that I said and believe. People don't see others as living, feeling humans. They are means to an end and if they don't &
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by hestipod 6y ago
Surgery ruined my life and will be the cause of it's end. I was scared into having surgery I didn't need and told if I did not I would be crippled by middle age. Multiple opinions got multiple variations on what should be done but
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by hestipod 6y ago
I guess I just feel hopeless because I cannot manage things on my own anymore, like I used to when life was good, and I cannot find enough help to survive. I have been failed over and over by systems and people and saying that is used as so
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by hestipod 6y ago
I am quite sure SOME people are scared, but I wish they'd try anyway...at least have the discussion of options. In my experience in life most people just don't care, are in it to win it, and others are just pieces on the board. Ye
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by hestipod 6y ago
Is caffeine any different? I went 40 years without it but started when I had a need for some energy as life was so bad. I tried to quit after two years and had 30 days + of migraines that never left of abated so I went back on it. I want of
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by hestipod 6y ago
I find the lowest settings on any phone I have tried too loud with any headphones or bluetooth device. I gave up trying. Even in a normal room its painfully loud. Per your username I do have tinnitus also and some minor hearing loss but not
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by hestipod 6y ago
Unfortunately changing my circumstances is the only thing that matters and could save me. Just being heard and my feelings validated isn't enough. But for some human emotional reason I am screaming out all the way to the impact.
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by hestipod 6y ago
I am not asking for help. There is no "right place to ask for help". It's been made clear over 15 years that won't happen. Not the help I need. I am venting when a relevant topic comes up. "Suicide isn't the an
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by hestipod 6y ago
I feel trapped by this because I cannot count on others to make the best decision..or right decision ethically and for decency...seems they choose to make the best for THEM at my expense. My life was ruined by medical errors. I was told to
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by hestipod 6y ago
I was recently hospitalized for a suicide attempt due to years of chronic pain and depression as a result. I was not allowed to die. I get no help to live after being dumped back out when "stable" medically. I was not allowed any
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by hestipod 6y ago
This can be heavy and I need to talk about it but feel it runs people off, but I had a recent suicide attempt resulting from years of chronic pain and increasing isolation. I am not getting enough help or support. The relevance is how you m
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Ask HN: Need help and support with suicide attempt recovery
4 points by hestipod 6y ago|0 comments
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by hestipod 6y ago
I am really not. It's been bad for a long time in various ways, but to cap it off I had a suicide attempt in the past weeks as things just fell out from under me. Now I have to try and recover from that, with all the same problems, plu
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by hestipod 6y ago
I would love to go for a long walk or better run. I have a disability, one of the things that led to this act, that makes walking very painful so I shuffle around short distances often outside to try and get sunshine. It really does help. B
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by hestipod 6y ago
I appreciate the well wishes. I am really struggling hence the post. I don't see myself making it like this, but am being hemmed in with no options. I really want a path and a life. I have burned out most of the people who seemed to ca
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Ask HN: Need help and support to fight through challenges
5 points by hestipod 6y ago|4 comments
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by hestipod 7y ago
I loved living in Warsaw. I have been trying to get back there for some time now but things just keep falling apart. Because of my health and associated losses I jut cannot do it alone or normally, and there is zero chance applying for asyl
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by hestipod 7y ago
I've written several of these of late. They just come out angry. Maybe at the last minute there will be some beauty. But considering who is around me to read them it's almost a waste of said beauty. The anger is more apt.
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by hestipod 7y ago
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by hestipod 7y ago
I don't need to "talk". I need practical support. I don't need words. I need money and a flat and stability and medical care. The same things I have always needed and was always denied. I've called hotlines in some
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by hestipod 7y ago
Yep. And, ironically since greed and profits ruined my life and stole my future, the only thing that will change that at this point is a lot of money to buy survivable conditions and be able to try treatments and options and have the basics
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by hestipod 7y ago
Yeah I am one of those people in many of the ways you have listed so the "we should appreciate how lucky we are" thing doesn't really apply to me. I am not lucky. I was disfigured, disabled, left in severe pain. I do not have
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by hestipod 7y ago
Nothing. All the conventional things, the things people are posting here repeatedly. I don't have. I either never had them like truly loving family, or they were taken from me like health and security. There were a handful of wonderful
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by hestipod 7y ago
I don't know what you are on about or doing...the post you took down was full of insults and retorts to things I didn't say and simply wrong about me. It was cruel and projecting. You said several strange and aggressive things lik
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by hestipod 7y ago
I am a fool who can't help but read things hoping something good happens even when I am so upset I want to stomp out to have SOME control of SOMETHING. So I read your long reply before you edited it. I won't tear it down because y
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by hestipod 7y ago
It's too late to edit and I need to just not read or post anything anymore since it never helps and makes me more depressed and angry seeing how true my assessment of the world is. But I couldn't stop worrying I made you feel bad
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by hestipod 7y ago
And I am sorry if my pain and desperation made it sound personal. I have always been a "helper" and hyper empathetic so a big psycholgical part of my problem is NOT being able to do anything useful for those in need and raging at
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by hestipod 7y ago
I think this is the last post I am going to make because I find myself feeling nothing but anger, resentment, defensiveness as even well meaning people don't get it and keep saying things I feel I have to explain and justify because fo
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by hestipod 7y ago
A broken, broke, barely breathing husk who doesn't have the energy for basic tasks often cannot be an activist. I don't have the ability to do that in addition to surviving. While I agree with social democracy I am not someone who

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