for years I tried to add various chemicals to my body to find a solution. it seemed obvious that I just needed to get the right drug at the right doseage and th

for years I tried to add various chemicals to my body to find a solution. it seemed obvious that I just needed to get the right drug at the right doseage and that would solve the problem. but the solution was exactly in the opposite direction. I didn't need to ADD things into my body to fix my brain, I needed to PREVENT certain things from entering my blood stream. diet is everything. food is medicine. food is so messed up in our society. to eat a healthy diet that will actually allow your brain to work and not get panic attacks requires EXTREME dedication and will power. AND on top of all that, you need to be social with your friends, family and co-workers and not make your special diet ruin the fun. Super challenging, but as I get older I find it's easier and easier to really carefully monitor each and every bit of food I put into my mouth. I won't bore you with the details but you probably already know, too much sugar, too many carbs, these things matter, a lot. Stop trying to fix big problems with band-aids when you've got to get to the source of the poison in your blood stream.