>...vocation of choice is misaligned with your personality... I also kind of sense this. The OP mentioned they were doing systems engineering. That's a very p

>...vocation of choice is misaligned with your personality... I also kind of sense this. The OP mentioned they were doing systems engineering. That's a very particular hellscape of grinding details. It involves being comfortable constantly dealing with a lack of control and flow. The good news is there many different kinds of work. I hope they can find their path.