I've experienced the opposite: wishing I were dead so life wouldn't go on with me falling into just another glum existence. That at the emotionally present mome

I've experienced the opposite: wishing I were dead so life wouldn't go on with me falling into just another glum existence. That at the emotionally present moment I snapshot it, preventing inevitable dullness that time moves on Unfortunately here I am, life moves on, now I'm just wasting away on HN