I'm also from Germany (a long time) foreigner and this story touches my heart. My whole life I've worked on places that work performance was everything in soft

I'm also from Germany (a long time) foreigner and this story touches my heart. My whole life I've worked on places that work performance was everything in software engineering, many toxic places etc. I hope at some point I can chill down and make peace with myself like you did. Congratulations!