If I am smart, I can fulfill my goals, excel academically and professionally, be able to deal with life and become rich. Even I have a bad memory but am not a

If I am smart, I can fulfill my goals, excel academically and professionally, be able to deal with life and become rich. Even I have a bad memory but am not a fast learner or quick thinker which I think are essential and a good indicator of "intelligence" and success. The other huge problem is, even for things I am interested in learning, I am not able to be consistent or am unable to properly learn it. I am from a place where you need to be smart to have a decent life, there is no security net or other support. It's everyone for themselves. Regardless of that, I have had aspirations from when I was little that I want to fulfill but it seems I lack the intellect and all other qualities to accomplish them. So yes, if I was smarter, I would be much happier.