I don't feel like I am in a position to do a recommendation here, but I agree that already the title implicates that this is something to talk about with a prof

I don't feel like I am in a position to do a recommendation here, but I agree that already the title implicates that this is something to talk about with a professional. Since this probably will not be possible in the short term, it might be worth a try to look into some cognitive therapy literature. For me, these made a difference: - David Burns: Feeling good - The new mood therapy - Martin Seligmann: Learned Optimism And that I actually would recommend to everyone ...