For what it's worth, my experience was opposite to yours. Public speaking: once I built competency and realized I'm actually pretty good at it, I started enjoy

For what it's worth, my experience was opposite to yours. Public speaking: once I built competency and realized I'm actually pretty good at it, I started enjoying it much more. Now I feel pretty comfortable presenting to a bigger group and it became my "default" – if I wanted to supress it, I'd have to actively pay attention.