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My personal experience: Apologies in advance because it is really impossible to put it in words. When I consumed golden teachers the first time, I was physical
by kaushikc 4y ago
My personal experience:
Apologies in advance because it is really impossible to put it in words. When I consumed golden teachers the first time, I was physically in my room but the mental layer was lifted up and it flew up into the outer space, and as I had passed many far away galaxies I was there and eventually into a void. I saw some seriously scary creatures in the darkness of the void and there were millions around me, somehow from the deepest parts of my mind, what I perceived to be the scariest(I never told exactly what to anyone) had materialised in millions right in front of me. I was facing my worst fears a million trillion times amplified. Suddenly everything including me burst into smallest of particles so miniscule and it was just patterns and then I found my mental state inside my own blood stream feeling all the movement and rapid flows. Came out of there and I felt the suffering of death of this planet and fear of every person and every living creature that lived in the past until now combined on this planet at once right then. Sounds like my worst nightmare but throughout the journey there was a back voice guiding me to manage me and suggest me and everything I went through was almost consensual, like the depth was only offered to me when I consented to it and as if there was a friend to help me. There was a point I was getting auditory feedback and I was turning away from that depth and I did not consent to and so I didn't go into that part. When I was facing my fears the voice suggested to observe that they were actually harmless and they were just existing and simply doing their own thing. Something really deep inside of me was fixed. There is a lot more to the experience that I actually cannot put in words.
- brokenmachine 4y agoThis body holding me Reminds me of my own mortality Embrace this moment, remember We are eternal, all this pain is an illusion
- lee 4y agoI LOVE listening to Tool while on psilocybin. This song especially gives me frisson even when I'm sober. There's something so beautiful about listening to the right music on psychedelics.
- beenBoutIT 4y agoA pre-ban Four Loko malt beverage and Tool might be a better pairing. Guessing you're not listening to their angry tracks.
- andrei_says_ 4y agoWhat kind of being is capable of experiencing and holding something as vast as what you described (knowing that words barely scratch the surface)? This is a mystery that riddles me. What are we?
- monktastic1 4y agoIt has been said that we are the sheer capacity for experience itself. FWIW, my own investigation has born this out.
- q7xvh97o2pDhNrh 4y agoDo you mind if I ask — how long ago was this? I've flirted with a couple of similar experiences and come away with a very similar feeling — "something really deep inside of me was fixed" — but I find a lot of it fades away after a while. Not all of it, but it definitely feels like 2 steps forward and 1 step back (or, more accurately, like 100 steps forward and 99 steps back). Lately, it's all just a distant memory. I remember the objective fact that I was that person a few years ago, that I explored the universe while laying on the floor in some dude's living room (how's that for an objective fact?), that I experienced actual happiness for the first time in my life, that I managed to stay genuinely happy for months afterward. But it all faded away. I've wondered ever since if folks who manage to maintain that sense of wonder afterwards do something different, or approach it differently.