I have a diagnosed condition called Dissociative Identity Disorder[1] and what you are describing as desirable (a mindful awareness of inner emotions during con

I have a diagnosed condition called Dissociative Identity Disorder[1] and what you are describing as desirable (a mindful awareness of inner emotions during conversations etc) is a state that with my condition means that I would technically be in a dissociative state - i.e. observing events unfolding in the third person (sorta aka 'viewer' mode) since to observe ones thoughts as they are formed means you are not fully part of them. One of my shrinks assured me that this 'was not a good thing ('normal') ' thing to do mainly because <reasons> but also because if you do so you miss out on the ‘thrills’ of life (i.e. Experiencing emotions rather than Observing emotions). Inner/Self reflection is a great thing and I’ve found it one of the many helpful things about doing (my own cobbled together form) of meditation and it is nice to see that others are also exploring thoughts and ideas as their self understanding progresses. There is however a concept called being centred / grounded. As far as I understand it that is the sense of when all things are humming along in an inner symphony of state aka when all dials in the green and all the horses/monkeys are pulling equally and together and things just …. flow. ‘I’ cease to exist and instead become the ‘moment’. I too have wondered about the ‘how to bring that sense of inner observation’ back with me from a meditative state so what bamurphymac1 said is a good answer with some good solutions [1] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociative_identity_disorder https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociative_identity_disorder