> At an overarching level, my primary wish in life is to leave something in the world that serves as an artifact of what kind of person I was. Maybe this wish i

> At an overarching level, my primary wish in life is to leave something in the world that serves as an artifact of what kind of person I was. Maybe this wish is at fault and I ought to get a better wish instead, or I'll be destroying my drive for creation at every turn. But in the present, this is how I honestly feel. Yes, I'm saying you would be better off dropping that, and instead just engaging in pure creation without any dependencies. > Why would I be doing this if I was only going to keep all of it to myself? That's my whole point. You shouldn't need a reason beyond "fun" or "just because" or even "keeping the hands/ears busy". People are unreliable, having reasons that depend on other people are unreliable. Letting go of that and having only reasons that depend on yourself is reliable. > Otherwise, the entire effort is nothing but toil with no sense of reward. Once again, it is entirely possible to just do it without any sense of reward. I know because I've developed this mindset, while I used to crave reward.