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Mine are more in the pathetic realm. I feel fatigued all the time. I sleep a lot and will wake up exactly 1 minute before standard working hours begin. It doe

Mine are more in the pathetic realm. I feel fatigued all the time. I sleep a lot and will wake up exactly 1 minute before standard working hours begin. It doesn't seem like there's any time. The second I finish work there's a black hole of making dinner, cleaning, doing a few chores, and then falling into bed.

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jkcorrea 6y ago
Those are far from pathetic, in fact some of the most real and valid reasons. Mental health is so important. But holy crap did I feel exactly this when working at bigtech. 1-2hr commute plus long days and short weekends it can all blur together so quickly. Winter especially was the worst when it was dark out long before I left the office. On the sleeping note - have you been tested for sleep apnea before? I'm young, slim and healthy but felt exactly that way (sleep 12+ hrs on nicest bed I could find, humidifier and air purifier and all, but still not feel rested & needing to go to my car during work to take a nap..). Low and behold I tested positive for sleep apnea, and I've heard CPAPs can be night and day for many with it.
- wildleaf 6y ago
  No, I haven't been tested, but I know that I snore if my weight goes above a threshold. Covid has kept me from exercising so my sleep is probably taking a huge hit.
eyelidlessness 6y ago
I haven’t looked at your responses but I hope you’ve gotten plenty that will amplify what I’m going to say: there’s nothing pathetic about this. Waking up, doing the same thing as the previous day, surviving, going to sleep, repeat... is uninspiring, and can feel soul crushing. I even bought a shirt about it to have a memory of this time, a Nine Inch Nails shirt that just repeats the lyric “every day is exactly the same” over and over. Anyway, what you’re feeling is normal. It’s not a good feeling, but you’re not feeling it alone.
- eecks 6y ago
  > I haven’t looked at your responses but I hope you’ve gotten plenty that will amplify what I’m going to say I am curious about how you browse HN? I only see one additional comment besides yours.
  - eyelidlessness 6y ago
    Generally on my phone. I only saw a bit of the first sentence of that reply at the point I had scrolled. I was also very near going to bed so probably half awake.

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jkcorrea 6y ago

Those are far from pathetic, in fact some of the most real and valid reasons. Mental health is so important. But holy crap did I feel exactly this when working at bigtech. 1-2hr commute plus long days and short weekends it can all blur together so quickly. Winter especially was the worst when it was dark out long before I left the office. On the sleeping note - have you been tested for sleep apnea before? I'm young, slim and healthy but felt exactly that way (sleep 12+ hrs on nicest bed I could find, humidifier and air purifier and all, but still not feel rested & needing to go to my car during work to take a nap..). Low and behold I tested positive for sleep apnea, and I've heard CPAPs can be night and day for many with it.

wildleaf 6y ago
No, I haven't been tested, but I know that I snore if my weight goes above a threshold. Covid has kept me from exercising so my sleep is probably taking a huge hit.

eyelidlessness 6y ago

I haven’t looked at your responses but I hope you’ve gotten plenty that will amplify what I’m going to say: there’s nothing pathetic about this. Waking up, doing the same thing as the previous day, surviving, going to sleep, repeat... is uninspiring, and can feel soul crushing. I even bought a shirt about it to have a memory of this time, a Nine Inch Nails shirt that just repeats the lyric “every day is exactly the same” over and over. Anyway, what you’re feeling is normal. It’s not a good feeling, but you’re not feeling it alone.

eecks 6y ago
> I haven’t looked at your responses but I hope you’ve gotten plenty that will amplify what I’m going to say I am curious about how you browse HN? I only see one additional comment besides yours.
- eyelidlessness 6y ago
  Generally on my phone. I only saw a bit of the first sentence of that reply at the point I had scrolled. I was also very near going to bed so probably half awake.