"What is my purpose". "You pass butter". Welcome to the real world. It beats you down and keeps you down. But the key is to keep going on. Stick to the sisyph

"What is my purpose". "You pass butter". Welcome to the real world. It beats you down and keeps you down. But the key is to keep going on. Stick to the sisyphean task of rolling the rock back up the mountain. It sounds like you are burnt out or having a midlife crisis, so good luck finding whatever it is you are looking for.